SomEtiMeS...

sometimes we do need a new enviroment....^^im sorry if i've hurted you...but i really think that diz thing is necessary for us.. . . next time we will be 2gether again if that time come...hontoni sumimasen~~~

serve You ~

God is great...no matter what , how, big i've betrayed You...
the mercy You showed ..means that You still love me..
.Lord. . .all the things seems impossible to me, but i really know n believe that ..in Your name..there are no such things.. . 
. . .so juz let me surrender all to You...
i want to start from the beginning...

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entah apa mw cakap....emosi xstabil....kesabaran suda capai limit...hurmm...xsangka dapat ckp kata2 sebegitu....hurmmm Tuhan tolonglah sya supaya sya dapat mengampuni dan mengasihi orang disekeliling....tetapi Tuhan, janganlah biarkan orang di sekeliling mengambil kesempatan atas kasih yang saya curahkan.....^^  

it's 0352 am !!!

ermmm....welllll hehea xtw apa mw cakap...hatie neyhh da blek jdie tenang[wlaupown lum sepenuhnya]...hehea... 

                                  kemarin mmg hari amarah ngeekkk..ntah napa mcm xngam sama urg         2...hehea..bingung sendiri...mmg neyhh atie sgt mara n skit atie...but, i juz need some time 2 calm down myself...then skg okayyy daa....mungkin suatu arie t sa akn ckp sama dy "what would u feel if u sit in my situation??" "what would u feel if u get a treat like that?" hehea..but suatu arie nntlar....hehea...u will never know until u experienced it...hope jak one day u understand how deep the hurt u've caused.  but i've already 4give u...it's juz i can't no longer treat or make u my "best frend"...we're juz frenz....im sorryyy...

                                 mlm len g kejadian...hehea...i don't blame u 4 da treat...coz i know u have da problem dat u won't tell me...i'm juz puzzelment n u gave me hundred question...i'm soryy if i've mde ur situation even more worse..i din't mean or want it....gomene...mmg sa xdapat bg apa2 pertolongan walaupun sa tw apa mslah 2, cuma sa mw jadi pendengar setia..n for me, my life is your life n your life is my life....it's okayyy..i'll wait until u've ready 2 tell me..thx 4 telling me 80% of da problem.....juz wanna tell, watever kind of person u are, it wont ever change everything dat already have started...remember dat...^^

                                 apapown y da happen...sa tw suma manusia xdapat lari dri wat kesilapan, sa juz mw perbaiki suma kesilapan y sa sedar sa terwat, n suma kesilapan y sa terwat y sa xsedar, sa arap ada org y akn tegur sy....n sa mw belajar mengasihi dengan lebih kasih supaya sy dapat mengampuni dgn lebih bersungguh2...xkira lar samada urg 2 seiman atw x...juz think dat kesilapan sy lebih bnyak menyakitkan atie God, tp God mc tolong sy smpy skrg, jde apa lar bha sa neyhh lw xmw kc ampun sala urg len....wlupown sa mc skit atie, tp sa akn tetap belajar...hurmmmm..hehea, 

     

&, l'll pray 4 u.....i love u...moga jiwamu kembali tenang. . . ....moga kmu dapat berbaik....amen....

wokeyy....0423am suda hehea....tata~~~

                    

tRima KaSihhh~~~

2day mmg sgt sukacita...berpun lambat p misa pertama td..tp pas 2 mmg sgt sukacita dan btl2 rindu perkumpulan cam 2....keadaan seperti neyhh pertama sa rasa tym sa d matrik. . .mmg banyak y sa belajar di matrik terutama sal rohani...di c2 lar bermula segalanya yang baik...dan sa sambung g di sini...pertama sa berada di sini, smua mcm biasa jak...sampailar td bila berkumpul dgn rakan seiman, memuji Tuhan, kasih dan smualar....sa dapat merasakan sukacita yang sa rasa dulu...malah lebih baik lagi....rencana Tuhan...mmg indahhh dan sangat indahh~~  mmg sa risau banyak assignment tp tiba2 Tuhan sentak hati sa...sgt tersentuhh n automatik neyhh beban hidup sa mcm terangkat n sa xrisau apa2 coz sa mcm rasa y sa meletakkan smua 2 kpd Tuhan...huuuu  then, sbnarnya sa ada sedih coz ada fmly member y masih kurang percayakan sa...ya mmg dulu sa seorang yang sangat teruk...dan sa tidak salahkan drg kalau drg mc ada rasa xpercaya dgn sa..but it hurts...hee..anywayy...tym mlm, smuanya sudah terlepas....trima kasihh Tuhan...Engkau hadir dlm setiap pergumulan sy...sa sgt rindu dgn urg2 yang sa sayang...keluarga sa, kwn2 sa n psngan pilihan sa.. . .sa btl2 mw balik ruma sekarang....huuu Tuhan....kuatkan hatie neyhh...sok, jika hari masih ada, sa akn teruskan lagi kehidupan biasa....akn bercampur dgn pelbagai ragam urg,  pelbagai tugas, pembelajaran, saiment...dn smua yang duniawi....tapi sa percaya, Kau hadir...sa maw belajar utk selalu dan tetap setia kpdMu dlm setiap saat....sa sgt bersyukur atas segala rencana yang Kau telah aturkan.....semuanya indahhh..sangat indahhh......sangat bersyukur...sangat berterima kasihh....sa mw menyembah Kau dlm hati sa...sa mw...sa mw sa mawwwwww........angakatlahhh hati ne Tuhan.....sa mau sentiasa berada dalam naunganMu.....kasihhh...pengharapan...tenang....sentuhan...kesabaran..kelembutan...cinta.....sukacita....dukacita....kekuatan...segalanya.....huhuhuhuhuhuuhuhu.....kerinduan sgat besarrrrrr...huhuhu Jesus..You are my saviour 4ever n everrrr!!!!!!!!  I love You....!!!!!

To Know Your Name~

The precious blood of Jesus Christ redeems
Forgiven I'm alive, restored set free
Your Majesty resides inside of me
Forever I believe, forever I believe

Arrested by Your truth and righteousness
Your grace has overwhelmed my brokenness
Convicted by Your spirit, led by Your word
Your love will never fail, Your love will never fail

To know You gave the world
Your only son for us
To know Your name
To live within the Saviors love

And He took my place
Knowing He'd be crucified
And You loved, You loved
For people undeserving

To know You gave the world
Your only Son for us
To know Your name
To live within the Saviors love

And He took my place
Knowing He'd be crucified
And You loved, You loved
For people undeserving

And I know you gave the world
Your only Son for us
To know Your name
To live within the Saviors love

And He took my place
Knowing He'd be crucified
And You loved, and You loved
For people undeserving
For people undeserving

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/h/hillsong/#share

aYaTT shAre shAreee~ hehea

Hendaklah masing-masing memberikan menurut kerelaan hatinya, jangan dengan sedih hati atau karena paksaan, sebab Allah mengasihi orang yang memberi dengan sukacita.
2 Korintus 9 : 7

i wiSH yoU wEre hERe. . . . . .

I can be tough, I can be strong
But with you, it's not like that at all
There's a girl that gives a shit
Behind this wall, you just walk through it


And I remember all those crazy things you said
You left them running though my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here


All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here


Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you here, here, here
I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you near, near, near
I wish you were here


I love the way you are
It's who I am, don't have to try hard
We always say, say it like it is
And the truth is that I really miss


All those crazy things you said
You left them running though my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here


All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it, just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here


Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you here, here, here
I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you near, near, near
I wish you were here


No, I don't wanna let go, I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go, let go, oh, oh
No, I don't wanna let go, I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go, let go, let go, let go
Let go, let go, let go, let go, let go, let go
Let go, let go, let go


Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you here, here, here
I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you near, near, near
I wish you were here


Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you here, here, here
I wish you were here
Damn, damn, damn
What I'd do to have you near, near, near
I wish you were here

" i hope dat u re alright there...dun wooorryyy 4 everything you've been throuh...juz be calm, smile, laugh a little bit hee....

 I just want u to know that I am here, you have me and most importantly, God knows everything all the time...yes its true im really worry bout u...bt i juz want us 2 face it 2gether..even i know dat i can't help u even a single thing..ermmm im sorry..bt i juz think dat i was livin in your life..n i can't avoid of being concerned bout u and not to feel wat u feel all da time.....

its juz because dat i lov u.."

Tuhan SungGuh baiK..

Di sebuah sekolah negeri, seorang guru bertanya pada muridnya, "Siapakah Tuhan itu ?" Pertanyaan pertama ditujukan pd muridnya yg bernama Mahfud, lalu Mahfud menjawab bahwa Tuhan itu adalah hakim yang mengadili orang jahat karena bapaknya Mahfud seorang hakim. Lalu guru bertanya kepada Boyke, siapakah Tuhan? Jawab Boyke, Tuhan adalah dokter yang bisa menyembuhkan segala penyakit, karena bapaknya Boyke adalah seorang dokter. 

Selanjutnya guru bertanya kepada Anthoni, siapa Tuhan? Anthoni berkata bahwa Tuhan adalah yang bisa memberikan segalanya ketika kita meminta kepadaNYA. Bapaknya Anthoni adalah konglomerat yang selalu menuruti keinginan anaknya.
Semua anak ditanya dan jawabnya adalah perspektif mereka terhadap pekerjaan bapaknya di dunia.
Tibalah giliran Ujang yang ditanya oleh guru. Guru tahu bahwa Ujang tidak semapan teman-temannya yang hidupnya berkecukupan. Kepala Ujang menunduk kebawah, tidak berani menatap gurunya. Sang guru lalu bertanya pada Ujang, siapakah Tuhan itu? Dengan suara pelan Ujang menjawab bahwa Tuhan itu adalah seorang "pemulung". Kelas menjadi ricuh & ribut dengan jawaban Ujang, bagaimana bisa Tuhan itu seperti "pemulung". Lalu guru pun bertanya, kenapa Ujang bilang kalau Tuhan itu "pemulung"?
Lalu Ujang menjawab dengan menengadahkan mukanya, Ujang berkata bahwa seorang pemulung mengambil barang-barang yang tidak berguna & mengumpulkannya, membersihkannya sehingga menjadi berguna. Bapak saya juga memungut saya dari jalanan & membawa pulang saya kerumahnya, saya diasuhnya, disekolahkan, dididiknya agar menjadi berguna. Jika bapak saya tidak mengambil saya, entah jadi apakah nasib saya sekarang dijalan. Demikianlah Tuhan menjadi seperti seorang "pemulung" yang mengambil yang tidak berguna menjadi berguna. Semua kelas terdiam dan tanpa terasa sang guru meneteskan airmata.
Lalu dipeluknya Ujang dengan erat sambil menangis terharu.
Mari kita bersama2 merenungkan kebaikan Tuhan dlm hidup kita. 

Tuhan sungguh BAIK --Deo Gratias--

Human Brain Analysis - Man vs. Woman......A MUST READ!

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1. MULTI-TASKING
Women - Multiple process
Womens brains designed to concentrate multiple task at a time.
Women can Watch a TV and Talk over phone and cook.
Men - Single Process
Mens brains designed to concentrate only one work at a time. Men can not watch TV and talk over the phone at the same time. they stop the TV while Talking. They can either watch TV or talk over the phone or cook.

2. LANGUAGE
Women can easily learn many languages. But can not find solutions to problems. Men can not easily learn languages, they can easily solve problems. That's why in average a 3 years old girl has three times higher vocabulary than a 3 yeard old boy.

3. ANALYTICAL SKILLS
Mens brains has a lot of space for handling the analytical process. They can analyze and find the solution for a process and design a map of a building easily. But If a complex map is viewed by women, they can not understand it. Women can not understand the details of a map easily, For them it is just a dump of lines on a paper.

4. CAR DRIVING.
While driving a car, mans analytical spaces are used in his brain. He can drive a car fastly. If he sees an object at long distance, immediately his brain classifies the object (bus or van or car) direction and speed of the object and he drives accordingly. Where woman take a long time to recognize the object direction/ speed. Mans single process mind stops the audio in the car (if any), then concentrates only on driving.

5. LYING
When men lie to women face to face, they get caught easily. Womans super natural brain observes facial expression 70%, body language 20% and words coming from the mouth 10%. Mens brain does not have this. Women easily lie to men face to face.
So guys, do not lie face to face.

6. PROBLEMS SOLVING
If a man have a lot of problems, his brain clearly classifies the problems and puts them in individual rooms in the brain and then finds the solution one by one. You can see many guys looking at the sky for a long time. If a woman has a lot of problems, her brain can not classify the problems. she wants some one to hear that. After telling everything to a person she goes happily to bed. She does not worry about the problems being solved or not.

7. WHAT THEY WANT
Men want status, success, solutions, big process, etc... But Women want relationship, friends, family, etc...

8. UNHAPPINESS
If women are unhappy with their relations, they can not concentrate on their work. If men are unhappy with their work, they can not concentrate on the relations.

9. SPEECH
Women use indirect language in speech. But Men use direct language.


10. HANDLING EMOTION
Women talk a lot without thinking. Men act a lot without thinking.